Updates

Long time no blog. The last few weeks have been hectic with the end of semester and all. I blocked out everything that was going on outside of school but once it was done I finally took the time out to think about things and realized that I am good. But here is an update on how things have been for me:

-I’m officially single (Facebook official and everything lol). I harbor no ill feelings towards he who shall not be named and it helps that I barely see him. Montreal is small but it seems huge when you want to avoid someone. Truth be told though, we were never on the same page and in our own ways we were probably holding each other back.

-I’m not trying to mingle. I don’t have any prospect right now even if I was trying to. I have been extremely focused and anti-social lately. I am surprisingly happy with being alone right now.

-I have learned to drive stick. I had Trackstar teach me. It was pretty interesting and he was so intense; I guess he thought I was going to crash his car. But I think I’ve mastered it and right on time cause I am looking to buy a new car and when I browse through the listings stick is always cheaper than automatic.

-Oh yeah by the way I am not cutting my hair. That was a bad idea for me to begin with not sure where my head was at when I said that. Short hair don't does care lol.

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Friends? Pt. 1

I try not to use that term very lightly because I really don't consider anybody I associate with to be a friend. Most of my friendships are very superficial meaning maybe we will go out to a club, talk about school and the weather and random things in popular media. Maybe we will talk about each others relationships but only about the good things and gossip about what's going on with different people in the city -- like who is pregnant now (lol it is a real epidemic right now I swear there is a baby boom in Montreal). It really depends on who you are to be honest and where you fall on my list of "friends". Maybe that sounds kind of fucked up I don't know but at the end of the day all I have is my family I could careless for friends.

Growing up especially going to school I was involved in a lot of extra curriculars and knew a lot of people. I honestly and truely consider nearly everyone to be my friend. Not necessarily my good friend but I built different levels of friendship most of them leaving me vulnerable in one way or another. At times I did feel uneasy but at the same time I was very naïve and never even considered that people have their own motives and reasons to be talking to me. Or that they would maliciously use things I told them in confidence to their own advantage. Anyway when I graduated high school I had 4 people I considered to be my Best friends - 2 girls and 2 dudes. I was loyalty to a fault when it came to them. I would have done anything for them under the assumption that they would do the same. They knew the intimate details of my life and I thought I knew the same about them.

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Why I need to get out of Montreal

I was looking at my last post and realized I was being quite harsh when I said my city is waste. Don't get me wrong I love my city it is so vibrant in the summer, the nightlife can compete with any major city, there are so many types of restaurants and always something to do it is hard to get bored. But I sincerely hate the people in it and I say that as nicely as possible.

There are 2 things about the people here that I know that nobody who lives here can disagree with. The first thing is about the stuck up French people who only care about separating from Canada and that continuously fail in their efforts to make French is the ONLY official language. They look down on people who don't speak french but don't bother to learn english themselves. Let's be honest outside of Quebec probably only 10% of the rest of Canada's population speak the language (with the exception of New Brunswick). English is the universal language of the world; it should be mandatory to learn to speak it. At the same time I believe that if you decide to live here you should learn to speak French but this is a bilingual province meaning if I walk into a store and start asking questions in English you best respond to me in english.. Or at least attempt. I am not malicious if I see that you are struggling to speak English I will start talking to you in French and vice versa.

The next thing that irks me about Montreal is the Black community. I swear that 80% of us (excluding myself when I say us-- by us I mean black people) play into the stereotypes of what these white people expect from black people like that video and such as not having a general high school degree, being teenage parents, having no goals, being criminals, destroying public property, just having no behaviour etc. Furthermore there are not many educated black people left in this city most have migrated to Toronto or the United States. I am sure its because of how we are treated when we go into the job market. This province can be Racist as fuck when it comes to relevant things like getting a job or starting a business. Its like our degrees are not equivalent to our white peers -- anyway that is a whole other issue and post in itself. I am not trying to come off as stuck up or anything but it is a real epidemic in this city. The number of black people doing something productive with their life in this city is quite minimal and nobody seems to care as long as every weekend they can go to the club and pop a bottle of grey goose or some other over priced liquor that they worked greater than 15 hours that week just to purchase. They think they are doing big things because they are working more than one job. My question to these people on a regular basis is: If you can make the same kind of money at one job would you bother working at that second job? I've never gotten a clear answer they are just so proud they are killing themselves working 70+ hours a week, partying all weekend and then doing the same thing again the next week and probably because the answer is No.

Anyway I'm done. I'm sure I am going to end up in Toronto after I graduate if I stay in Canada. I would love to live and work in New York City. I am in love with that city.

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